I remember when Rob was in LOROS, I managed to show him a photo of my dress. He cried, and so did I. We knew, as our wedding was still over a year away he wouldn't be there to see us married. We had talked about moving the wedding forward, but he didnt want that. Having lost over 14 stone due to the cancer he was very conscious that wherever he went he was becoming the centre of attention.
At this point, only me, my bridesmaids, my mom, my nana and Rob knew what my dress looked like. It was such a special moment to share with him, and I will never forget his face as he lay in bed just looking at my dress. I can't begin to imagine what that moment would have been like had that been my dad.
LOROS is such a special place. Obviously for the patient who is their either receiving palliative care, or at any other point in their journey with a terminal illness, but until I went there with him I never realised how much they do for their family. Every single person working their from the doctors, the nurses right to the volunteers and domestic staff treated each of us with the upmost kindness.
My wedding dress has been in the back of my old wardrobe at my parents house since March 3rd 2013. Apart from when, on my 23rd birthay I decided to put it on. Sat in the lounge, in my wedding dress, there was a knock at the door and without even thinking I got up to answer it. They man who had come to collect a dresser my dad had sold on ebay got quite the shock!!
I dont know why I am holding onto it, I know I have no need for it again. Maybe its the amount of money I know my parents spent on it. Maybe its just that sentimental value that its my wedding dress. Either way i know for definate that it is time to let it go, and raise some money in Rob's memory.
I visited the Bridal Departmet of LOROS By design recently and was blown away by how much of a bridal boutique feel they had managed to create, and the staff were much friendlier than most of the boutiques I went in while looking for a dress!! If LOROS had have had the bridal boutique when I was dress shopping I wouldnt have hesitated. Well there is always my vow renewal ....
So as the cycle of all my clothes go, my wedding dress will shortly be on its way to LOROS (along with the lingerie I bought with good intentions and forgot to take with me on the big day so still has its tags on!). Its a bittersweet feeling as I am hoping that it will make a nice profit for LOROS to continue there amazing work, and yet at the same time I want to hold onto it for just a bit longer. I know that Rob will be proud of me, and everything I am doing here is in his memory.
During frocktober I am hoping to inspire people to get involved in LOROS events so please if you do use the twitter hashtag #bloggerdoesfrocktober and also if you would like to donate to the cause you can do here as I am trying to raise £1000 in 1000 days for LOROS
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